Writing With My Heart On A Pen

Be honest with me…tell me what you think if it.
Tell me, just tell me. I can’t stand this silence.
I just need someone outside to tell me what the voice inside of me is screaming.

That I suck.
That my stuff is boring.
That my writing is boring.

That it’s confusing to read.
That’s why no one can ever bother reading it to the end right?


It’s just only natural in the creative process to be knocked down with a feeling of incompetence. But I could remember a time when that voice shut up and stopped talking for a good number of years. Now it’s back and it’s rattling at my ear.
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Emanuella 2

So how’d it going so far? I don’t usually write so flowery, but I was working on writing with a different “voice”. Instead of my usual all-knowing, comprehending, down-to-earth style that I usually use… This is weird isn’t? Gives an appearance of an old-school type of story. I look at this and sometimes I wonder if I really wrote it… when I put up a different one, you’ll see what I mean.

This story also uses very common, very normal people names… something that I normally don’t use…. in other stories I have: Anasashu, Zusio, Zeal, Krim and other names that I don’t usually hear around me, I also have a tendancy of using Asian names mostly Japanese, and I think I have one or two Chinese names throwed into the mix… But oh well…

This chappie has as a smootch scene, but nothing to graphic. please take the time to drop your two cents, for I am a poor begger.

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Emanuella 1

Okay here’s the first one that I’m going to put up… the first one because it’s the only one at this point that I have typed up. It’s such a weird story that I wasn’t sure on how far I would be going with this… it was written at a time when I was trying comprehend why a female should enjoy watching two men fall in love (yaoi) and all the science behind it.

I don’t like yaoi… I find it the strangest thing I’ve ever seen… and I don’t find any squeal or appeal. But I don’t outright puke at the sight of it. I find it alright I guess but not worth buying or reading or spending any of what little precious time that I have watching it. It’s just funny to see a picture now and then, or read some crazy fan-fics they have out there pairing non yaoi-characters into seme/uke categories. I have playful conversations with my sister saying that Sasuke is an UKE and not a SEME and how Naruto is not and UKE but a SEME so on and so forth… the crazy things these fan-girls do… I mean seriously… but I’m getting seriously off topic so here we go…

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