Status

I’m going to be more active on this blog; it’s all part of me becoming productive again. I’m going to focus on completing stories which I will talk about. I’ll also be giving small anime reviews and come up with interesting topics to speak about as well.  My goal is to at least make one post per day.

Wish me luck

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People are scared of labels?

People are scared of labels?

“I don’t label things.”

“You can’t just say that it is like that. You can’t assume. You can’t mark things like that. It’s not how the world works…”

I often wonder as I discover the things around me—are people scared of labels? Or is it really no way to categorize something? It is really what you would call assumption to say something is labeled as such? Continue reading

Writing With My Heart On A Pen

Be honest with me…tell me what you think if it.
Tell me, just tell me. I can’t stand this silence.
I just need someone outside to tell me what the voice inside of me is screaming.

That I suck.
That my stuff is boring.
That my writing is boring.

That it’s confusing to read.
That’s why no one can ever bother reading it to the end right?
Right??

RIGHT?!?!?!

It’s just only natural in the creative process to be knocked down with a feeling of incompetence. But I could remember a time when that voice shut up and stopped talking for a good number of years. Now it’s back and it’s rattling at my ear.
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I’m going to start updating… I’m being really serious this time!

The time that I’m starting to write this post is waaaaay too late. I should be sleeping right now…BUT! My neglected blog is crying for attention. Mainly because I’ve placed so much work and have so much pride for this blog to just simply go to waste.

I simply hate to always excuse myself as I usually do in my blog/journal entries of the various sites I pertain to, explaining why I have stopped posting, etc. So instead, I’m going to jump into what I have plans to do…
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Terrible Hurricanes… the new norm?

The week before hurricane Sandy would come and hit our area in Northeast NJ, my father stocked up on food, bottles of water, packed his flashlights with new batteries and braced himself for the worst.

Personally after having lived through Irene last year, I felt it was going to be something of similar damage. I’m currently living in Passaic NJ, a small traverse town settled between Garfield, Clifton and Paterson. It’s more inland and since I was wasn’t living in Garfield but with my father in Passaic; I wasn’t worried as much as I could have been with Irene. Continue reading

Ready or Not…

Life is basically about improvement, it’s about surviving and trying to reach that goal—the one that you spend all your existence figuring out. For me, I’ve had some idea, but I’ve never been able to pinpoint it. Now, I’ve settled with just aiming without knowing where to shoot, and just fucking shooting.

I’m going to start running in the dark. Because life is short, and I can’t waste anymore years second guessing myself. That being said, I am going to revive this blog and bring it up to speed. There isn’t much to change, just add more things and take away a couple of things.

I will add some very old blog entries that I had intended to add a while back and post up my purdy drawings all over the place. ^w^

As for my activities, I’ve been all over the place, drawing here and there, writing some, and listening to lots and lots of Vocaloid songs. I am officially a passionate lover of Vocaloid. It’s helped me spark back my motivation and has become one of my new muses for my arts and writing.

Just gotta keep working…

This blog is starting to resemble my neglected diary. But I want to get back on this once more. So, I’m writing this post to keep up to date with it. And possibly build some necessity to keep writing. I’ve been going through a lot and have set several endeavors for myself.

I feel like I need so much more strength and will power to get those things done, because whenever I try, the walls rise higher, in order to prevent me from jumping over. But I’m determined because I virtually see nothing else for myself.

I feel like I’m getting older, like I’m wasting away, like I’m wasting time. It’s only when I’m working without a care in the world that I feel that time itself stands still.

So that’s what I will do, I’m just going to keep working. I feel really happy when I keep myself busy. I’ll see how it goes…

I want to get back on my fanfictions again, but when I think about it, I am reminded of the novel I want to finish…. ahhh I do anything but that don’t I?

I have returned if circumstances permit me…

Finally, at long last, I am connected to the internet.

It would be the only reason why I haven’t updated in so long. It’s ridiculous… My life has been one tumbling fall after another. But life is not life without it’s ups and downs. More downs than ups, to be more precise.

Now, I haven’t been so productive this year of 2011, it’s been sort of a downer. And I had so much hopes for this year too… I didn’t know it was going to slap me in the face as much as it did. But well, I am persistent.

I think for Nanowrimo I’m going to work on Orphan story again. Just because I wanna finish the damn MS. It’s so frustrating. I wanna do it before I turn 30… seriously…

Okay, so I mentioned before that I’m going to be adding pages and more stuff to this journal. So, it’s going to be very gradual, since I have tons of stuff I need to catch up on in the absence of my time from the internet.

Well, I’ll see how it all pans out…

I live in the NJ area, so you know what that means: Hurricane Irene. People are scared shitless… I in the other hand am pretty relaxed. I just want to spend a peaceful weekend without any major complications… but most of the time things don’t happen the way you want it to… Well, I don’t want to lose the interent I finally have gotten cuz that would really suck…

Oh well…

Writer’s Club, Anyone?

It has been a thought that sat in the back of my mind for what felt like years…

Once upon a time, I belonged to an online writing community. Granted, the members on it were mostly inactive, and some people there were a bit biased on some fandom pairing preferences; but it was an eye opening experience for me. I learned about Nanowrimo, for the first time, learned terms like “plot bunnies” and “writer’s block” descriptions of things that I go through all the time and I didn’t realize had names for them. I learned that my procrastinating nature, that my feeling of incompetence, my ups and downs; were actually regular things that any writer goes through.

I also learned that a writer is not a person who publishes a book, or someone who decides to dribble out scribbles and boast about it. A writer is someone who constantly LIVES and breaths words, plot, stories, characters. They are the ones that feel incomplete if they don’t carry a pen and notepad with them. They are the ones that use anything and everything as an inspiration for an idea. They are the ones that look beyond the writing and see if there is feeling, passion behind their works… They are the ones can identify other writers, and easily catch signs of talent in others. I learned that writing is a GIFT, than not everyone can write. That it is not easy, nor is it tedious. It’s fun, and it’s hell at the same time. But, most importantly, it’s something you can’t live without… If you are like that, if you find yourself feeling this way… then that means you indeed are a writer. And you don’t have to publish anything to call yourself one…

That website shut down for obvious reasons, but set off an idea, a though that’s been bugging me ever since….

Why not set up a writer’s club?

Yes, some type of club where people can bounce ideas of each other. And it doesn’t have to be limited to that, but it can also include artists who want have stories/comics to go along with their characters. I notice that there are artists out there that have good characters and ideas, but they struggle coming up with a storyline for them… When writers and artists go hand in hand, together it’s like chocolate and caramel. A bombshell combination.

I want to set up a blog for it and come up with a name. I’m going to have some of my close friends work with me. I also would like to set up a place to chat online. Well, I’ll see how this works out. I still don’t know, how it’s gonna run or anything, but I just wanna get this outta my chest.

If anyone reading this interested, please drop a comment or two.