Sooo… yeah the last time I wrote in this blog was a private personal angst venting type post from 2016…. I don’t know even know anymore. I think I’m going to stop saying what I’m going to do because half the time I don’t keep up with my word. Haha.
Well, so there’s been something that’s been bugging me for a while. And it’s that fact that most of the time when there’s a darker skinned character showing up in anime, game or such they have either white or platinum blond hair. Or just blond hair.
Don’t get me wrong, the contrast of the skin color is pretty attractive. It’s just in the same way that I will always be awed by the beauty of dark hair against very pale skin. However, when white haired tanned dudes become the only thing you see across the board it starts to become pretty annoying.
I’m going to be more active on this blog; it’s all part of me becoming productive again. I’m going to focus on completing stories which I will talk about. I’ll also be giving small anime reviews and come up with interesting topics to speak about as well. My goal is to at least make one post per day.
Wish me luck
People are scared of labels?
“I don’t label things.”
“You can’t just say that it is like that. You can’t assume. You can’t mark things like that. It’s not how the world works…”
I often wonder as I discover the things around me—are people scared of labels? Or is it really no way to categorize something? It is really what you would call assumption to say something is labeled as such? Continue reading
Be honest with me…tell me what you think if it.
Tell me, just tell me. I can’t stand this silence.
I just need someone outside to tell me what the voice inside of me is screaming.
That I suck.
That my stuff is boring.
That my writing is boring.
That it’s confusing to read.
That’s why no one can ever bother reading it to the end right?
It’s just only natural in the creative process to be knocked down with a feeling of incompetence. But I could remember a time when that voice shut up and stopped talking for a good number of years. Now it’s back and it’s rattling at my ear.
The time that I’m starting to write this post is waaaaay too late. I should be sleeping right now…BUT! My neglected blog is crying for attention. Mainly because I’ve placed so much work and have so much pride for this blog to just simply go to waste.
I simply hate to always excuse myself as I usually do in my blog/journal entries of the various sites I pertain to, explaining why I have stopped posting, etc. So instead, I’m going to jump into what I have plans to do…
The week before hurricane Sandy would come and hit our area in Northeast NJ, my father stocked up on food, bottles of water, packed his flashlights with new batteries and braced himself for the worst.
Personally after having lived through Irene last year, I felt it was going to be something of similar damage. I’m currently living in Passaic NJ, a small traverse town settled between Garfield, Clifton and Paterson. It’s more inland and since I was wasn’t living in Garfield but with my father in Passaic; I wasn’t worried as much as I could have been with Irene. Continue reading
Life is basically about improvement, it’s about surviving and trying to reach that goal—the one that you spend all your existence figuring out. For me, I’ve had some idea, but I’ve never been able to pinpoint it. Now, I’ve settled with just aiming without knowing where to shoot, and just fucking shooting.
I’m going to start running in the dark. Because life is short, and I can’t waste anymore years second guessing myself. That being said, I am going to revive this blog and bring it up to speed. There isn’t much to change, just add more things and take away a couple of things.
I will add some very old blog entries that I had intended to add a while back and post up my purdy drawings all over the place. ^w^
As for my activities, I’ve been all over the place, drawing here and there, writing some, and listening to lots and lots of Vocaloid songs. I am officially a passionate lover of Vocaloid. It’s helped me spark back my motivation and has become one of my new muses for my arts and writing.
This blog is starting to resemble my neglected diary. But I want to get back on this once more. So, I’m writing this post to keep up to date with it. And possibly build some necessity to keep writing. I’ve been going through a lot and have set several endeavors for myself.
I feel like I need so much more strength and will power to get those things done, because whenever I try, the walls rise higher, in order to prevent me from jumping over. But I’m determined because I virtually see nothing else for myself.
I feel like I’m getting older, like I’m wasting away, like I’m wasting time. It’s only when I’m working without a care in the world that I feel that time itself stands still.
So that’s what I will do, I’m just going to keep working. I feel really happy when I keep myself busy. I’ll see how it goes…
I want to get back on my fanfictions again, but when I think about it, I am reminded of the novel I want to finish…. ahhh I do anything but that don’t I?
Finally, at long last, I am connected to the internet.
It would be the only reason why I haven’t updated in so long. It’s ridiculous… My life has been one tumbling fall after another. But life is not life without it’s ups and downs. More downs than ups, to be more precise.
Now, I haven’t been so productive this year of 2011, it’s been sort of a downer. And I had so much hopes for this year too… I didn’t know it was going to slap me in the face as much as it did. But well, I am persistent.
I think for Nanowrimo I’m going to work on Orphan story again. Just because I wanna finish the damn MS. It’s so frustrating. I wanna do it before I turn 30… seriously…
Okay, so I mentioned before that I’m going to be adding pages and more stuff to this journal. So, it’s going to be very gradual, since I have tons of stuff I need to catch up on in the absence of my time from the internet.
Well, I’ll see how it all pans out…
I live in the NJ area, so you know what that means: Hurricane Irene. People are scared shitless… I in the other hand am pretty relaxed. I just want to spend a peaceful weekend without any major complications… but most of the time things don’t happen the way you want it to… Well, I don’t want to lose the interent I finally have gotten cuz that would really suck…
Yooooo, call me left behind on technology, but this is the first post I ever wrote from a smart phone; a blackberry to be exact. Continue reading