Be honest with me…tell me what you think if it.
Tell me, just tell me. I can’t stand this silence.
I just need someone outside to tell me what the voice inside of me is screaming.
That I suck.
That my stuff is boring.
That my writing is boring.
That it’s confusing to read.
That’s why no one can ever bother reading it to the end right?
It’s just only natural in the creative process to be knocked down with a feeling of incompetence. But I could remember a time when that voice shut up and stopped talking for a good number of years. Now it’s back and it’s rattling at my ear. Continue reading →
Lately I’ve been actively watching a lot of anime. Well simply because this season of anime is just fuckin awesome and seriously there are so many good on going titles out and I’m just like obsessing over two new fandoms and just want to draw fanart but I’m procrastinating and I would rather work on my commissions and and WELL! You kinda get my drift with the run on sentence there…. Continue reading →
So much anime, so little time. What should I write about this time. Mmmm, I’m pretty divided—but I’m guessing that I should be jotting down my feelings on the animes that I’m currently obsessing about. And that is:
Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun
Sukitte ii na Yo
I’ve also promised my sister that I’d watch Sword Art Online, but even thought I’ve found interest in the anime, it lacks the addictive charm to get me to keep coming back to it. BUT the four animes that I’ve listed DO have that addictive charm. These are the shows that are swiriling in my mind, and have me giggling in random times of day as I remember them.
OH and I plan to make the time to watch Puella Magi Madoka Magica, just BECAUSE! The OST is directed and conducted by the Kajiura-sama.
I originally planned to bunch this with my previous post but it grew to long, so I split it… So, here in this post I’m going to explain all things I’m getting myself entangled with lately. So read on, if you dare… *evil laugh* Continue reading →
The time that I’m starting to write this post is waaaaay too late. I should be sleeping right now…BUT! My neglected blog is crying for attention. Mainly because I’ve placed so much work and have so much pride for this blog to just simply go to waste.
I simply hate to always excuse myself as I usually do in my blog/journal entries of the various sites I pertain to, explaining why I have stopped posting, etc. So instead, I’m going to jump into what I have plans to do… Continue reading →
The week before hurricane Sandy would come and hit our area in Northeast NJ, my father stocked up on food, bottles of water, packed his flashlights with new batteries and braced himself for the worst.
Personally after having lived through Irene last year, I felt it was going to be something of similar damage. I’m currently living in Passaic NJ, a small traverse town settled between Garfield, Clifton and Paterson. It’s more inland and since I was wasn’t living in Garfield but with my father in Passaic; I wasn’t worried as much as I could have been with Irene. Continue reading →
Life is basically about improvement, it’s about surviving and trying to reach that goal—the one that you spend all your existence figuring out. For me, I’ve had some idea, but I’ve never been able to pinpoint it. Now, I’ve settled with just aiming without knowing where to shoot, and just fucking shooting.
I’m going to start running in the dark. Because life is short, and I can’t waste anymore years second guessing myself. That being said, I am going to revive this blog and bring it up to speed. There isn’t much to change, just add more things and take away a couple of things.
I will add some very old blog entries that I had intended to add a while back and post up my purdy drawings all over the place. ^w^
As for my activities, I’ve been all over the place, drawing here and there, writing some, and listening to lots and lots of Vocaloid songs. I am officially a passionate lover of Vocaloid. It’s helped me spark back my motivation and has become one of my new muses for my arts and writing.
Every year around September in a small little city called Hazleton, PA (USA); there is this end of the year fair where people crowd the streets and there are booths that sell all kinds of stuff. It’s really exciting and one of the few highlights that I enjoyed when I lived there. One of the things that stood out to me, was the booths that sold homemade crafts, wooden clocks and all kinds of unique stuff!
Since then, I’ve always been interested in opening up my own booth and sell my posters and artwork. But you really can’t get much motivation if you do it by yourself you know? So one day the topic popped up in one of my IM sessions with my best friend, Tachi, and we decide to collab and do the project together, we even got another friend from college aboard on the project. We will be aiming to make our things for the 2013 Funfest.
I’m so excited!
All of the artwork that will be created for this project, won’t be uploaded anywhere online. I’m going to keep of them off the radar until further notice. That way their image won’t get downloaded or copied by any anons out there. After funfest however, I will be uploading them to the general public for all the see.
The type of art that I will create will be different from what I usually make, since I will be molding it to be for general audience, things like: Fairies, Disney characters, and other mainstream themes that will catch the eyes of people outside of the anime/manga fandom.
This blog is starting to resemble my neglected diary. But I want to get back on this once more. So, I’m writing this post to keep up to date with it. And possibly build some necessity to keep writing. I’ve been going through a lot and have set several endeavors for myself.
I feel like I need so much more strength and will power to get those things done, because whenever I try, the walls rise higher, in order to prevent me from jumping over. But I’m determined because I virtually see nothing else for myself.
I feel like I’m getting older, like I’m wasting away, like I’m wasting time. It’s only when I’m working without a care in the world that I feel that time itself stands still.
So that’s what I will do, I’m just going to keep working. I feel really happy when I keep myself busy. I’ll see how it goes…
I want to get back on my fanfictions again, but when I think about it, I am reminded of the novel I want to finish…. ahhh I do anything but that don’t I?
Finally, at long last, I am connected to the internet.
It would be the only reason why I haven’t updated in so long. It’s ridiculous… My life has been one tumbling fall after another. But life is not life without it’s ups and downs. More downs than ups, to be more precise.
Now, I haven’t been so productive this year of 2011, it’s been sort of a downer. And I had so much hopes for this year too… I didn’t know it was going to slap me in the face as much as it did. But well, I am persistent.
I think for Nanowrimo I’m going to work on Orphan story again. Just because I wanna finish the damn MS. It’s so frustrating. I wanna do it before I turn 30… seriously…
Okay, so I mentioned before that I’m going to be adding pages and more stuff to this journal. So, it’s going to be very gradual, since I have tons of stuff I need to catch up on in the absence of my time from the internet.
Well, I’ll see how it all pans out…
I live in the NJ area, so you know what that means: Hurricane Irene. People are scared shitless… I in the other hand am pretty relaxed. I just want to spend a peaceful weekend without any major complications… but most of the time things don’t happen the way you want it to… Well, I don’t want to lose the interent I finally have gotten cuz that would really suck…