Just gotta keep working…

This blog is starting to resemble my neglected diary. But I want to get back on this once more. So, I’m writing this post to keep up to date with it. And possibly build some necessity to keep writing. I’ve been going through a lot and have set several endeavors for myself.

I feel like I need so much more strength and will power to get those things done, because whenever I try, the walls rise higher, in order to prevent me from jumping over. But I’m determined because I virtually see nothing else for myself.

I feel like I’m getting older, like I’m wasting away, like I’m wasting time. It’s only when I’m working without a care in the world that I feel that time itself stands still.

So that’s what I will do, I’m just going to keep working. I feel really happy when I keep myself busy. I’ll see how it goes…

I want to get back on my fanfictions again, but when I think about it, I am reminded of the novel I want to finish…. ahhh I do anything but that don’t I?

Procrastination kills

Procrastination and distraction are twin demons that double team me to drag me down heartlessly and after they let me go.. it’s almost too late to catch up… it happens like most of the time.  I’ve put in mind that this semester I won’t let them get the best of me.

Ahh well besides that . Everything is going alright I guess. The classes are alright, my mother being a bother as usual.  I’m just worried that I’m going to lose internet connection soon. So I’m trying to take advantage before they cut if off for lack of paying the bill. Being jobless sucks… that’s why I hate holiday jobs and temp jobs… it’s so mendokusei to job hunt, redo my resumé go to interviews and wait and search and wait and search and wait and search… well you get the picture.

I’m lagging behind on some posts that I wanna do. And there’s several drawings I want to work on too… but I can’t get too carried away on my personal projects that I neglect my school work… today I’ve stayed several hours at the college to get some work done… and also work on my blog because unfortunately Distraction just sits there as the Lady Deity ruling over the household… I don’t know why I find it so difficult to study even work on my writings… it’s weird… I bought a desk and I never sit to write on it, I got myself clip stand to type work without craning my neck and I haven’t properly used it yet and I got a new laptop and yet I still have to wait my turn to use  the computer because  apparently two PC aren’t enough?! Ah…. I complain, but the situation isn’t serious, it’s just baffling.

Artistic Spotlight: Rueme

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Lag is so cute!

Lag Seeing

Artistic Spotlight: UdonNodu

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Bitter Virgin

I don’t remember exactly what date was it but I do remember it was a Friday… because I wanted to read Bleach and it wasn’t out yet because it was like four o’clock in the morning and I couldn’t sleep, I randomly pick this manga to read even though I have several others that I want to read… ah donno what’s wrong with me…

Hyperventiling

Oh my goodness. I really didn’t see it coming. Not at all not at all…

Sakura’s Behavior in Naruto

So, regular readers of the Naruto manga have seen a very interesting twist… when Sakura left to see Naruto, because she cried and put her thoughts together and Sai’s words made her realize something important.

Showing off my new born babies…

I wish everyone to have a very nice Thanksgiving…. enjoy your turkey and those talkative uncles with their round-about tall tales with no point in them… yeah…well as for me, this year will be quite peaceful… I’m glad I don’t have to work on that day. Only on the day after, ahahah.

It’ll be me, my siblings and my mother. Just that. But I’m too weary and tired to whine about not having people over… this is good for me I guess…

It’s said that I write so much about what I want to write or about what I’ve written and next to no one  has seen it… it’s like I’m rasing hype of some kind that I could never live up… but I want to it’s just in my brain just flashing scenes and images so vividly that I want to scream and tear it out of my brain and spatter it on paper… those f**king plot bunnies are killing me… they’re eating me alive… it’s so horrible… but at the same time I get so happy when I get a new idea, or when I come up with a new plot twist or a new love interest or a new reason to make a character lost his mind and go delirious… oh it’s so fun… It’s a love/hate relationship that I have it’s so ironic.

Here’s the thing… I’m thinking about posting some of the my writings here in this blog, since it is about  “fiction” anyways. I’m planning to put ”orginal” stuff… Yeah, some of my raw skills exposed, granted, I like this anonomous feeling that I have posting online because I don’t know how my readers look like… I’m very emotional with my stories, I shelter them like newborn babies *laughs*  I just wonder if readers will have a problem reading white letters on a black background… or if the lettering in this blog is too tiny or both… I don’t know, I worry about those little things, ya know?

Whatever story I post here, I plan to later on put them on the fictionpress account that I have… because I like to keep those things in a nice cute collected place. *laughs*

The “maybe” driving method

I’m getting used to my new job/school/home schedule that I have… a little rocky but I believe by the second week I’ll be fine…

I’m working night shift at a warehouse and at the same time going to college four times a week…. but anyway enough about me…

I’ve been watching Gintama, the anime is getting good again. God I love that show. Which reminds me the I have to get time to work on some fiction I’m writing about that anime as well. Lately in my driving I’ve been having close calls when making turns and when zooming yellow lights… I’m just real lucky I haven’t cross paths with cops yet. I’m so reckless but I promised my little brother to be careful, perhaps I’ll use the “maybe” driving method.

Maybe… cops will be hiding in bushes right at the entrance of route 924?
Maybe… and old lady will be zooming by?
Maybe… I’m being watched by a satellite from outer space?!?!

Ahahha, don’t mind me, just watch this clip and I’m sure you’ll understand what I’m getting at: