Diversity Should be Ambigious

Note: Personal rambling; this is something I was thinking about when on my returning commute.

Being a shy, introverted girl, I always used fantasy and animation (cartoons/anime) to escape the real world and social problems. To this day, it’s an outlet that still helps me retain some sanity. (Because I’m weird like that) Continue reading

People are scared of labels?

People are scared of labels?

“I don’t label things.”

“You can’t just say that it is like that. You can’t assume. You can’t mark things like that. It’s not how the world works…”

I often wonder as I discover the things around me—are people scared of labels? Or is it really no way to categorize something? It is really what you would call assumption to say something is labeled as such? Continue reading

Writing With My Heart On A Pen

Be honest with me…tell me what you think if it.
Tell me, just tell me. I can’t stand this silence.
I just need someone outside to tell me what the voice inside of me is screaming.

That I suck.
That my stuff is boring.
That my writing is boring.

That it’s confusing to read.
That’s why no one can ever bother reading it to the end right?
Right??

RIGHT?!?!?!

It’s just only natural in the creative process to be knocked down with a feeling of incompetence. But I could remember a time when that voice shut up and stopped talking for a good number of years. Now it’s back and it’s rattling at my ear.
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Things you thought you got rid of but are still there….

Lately I’ve been actively watching a lot of anime. Well simply because this season of anime is just fuckin awesome and seriously there are so many good on going titles out and I’m just like obsessing over two new fandoms and just want to draw fanart but I’m procrastinating and I would rather work on my commissions and and WELL! You kinda get my drift with the run on sentence there…. Continue reading

Not Enough Hours in a Day…

Ugh….

So much anime, so little time. What should I write about this time. Mmmm, I’m pretty divided—but I’m guessing that I should be jotting down my feelings on the  animes that I’m currently obsessing about. And that is:

  • K Project
  • Kamisama Hajimemashita
  • Tonari no Kaibutsu-kun
  • Sukitte ii na Yo

I’ve also promised my sister that I’d watch Sword Art Online, but even thought I’ve found interest in the anime, it lacks the addictive charm to get me to keep coming back to it. BUT the four animes that I’ve listed DO have that addictive charm. These are the shows that are swiriling in my mind, and have me giggling in random times of day as I remember them.

OH and I plan to make the time to watch Puella Magi Madoka Magica, just BECAUSE! The OST is directed and conducted by the Kajiura-sama.

*swoooon*

Yuki Kajiura-sama~~~~

I Have a Tendancy of Doing a Ton of Things at the Same Time…

I originally planned to bunch this with my previous post but it grew to long, so I split it… So, here in this post I’m going to explain all things I’m getting myself entangled with lately. So read on, if you dare… *evil laugh* Continue reading

I’m going to start updating… I’m being really serious this time!

The time that I’m starting to write this post is waaaaay too late. I should be sleeping right now…BUT! My neglected blog is crying for attention. Mainly because I’ve placed so much work and have so much pride for this blog to just simply go to waste.

I simply hate to always excuse myself as I usually do in my blog/journal entries of the various sites I pertain to, explaining why I have stopped posting, etc. So instead, I’m going to jump into what I have plans to do…
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Terrible Hurricanes… the new norm?

The week before hurricane Sandy would come and hit our area in Northeast NJ, my father stocked up on food, bottles of water, packed his flashlights with new batteries and braced himself for the worst.

Personally after having lived through Irene last year, I felt it was going to be something of similar damage. I’m currently living in Passaic NJ, a small traverse town settled between Garfield, Clifton and Paterson. It’s more inland and since I was wasn’t living in Garfield but with my father in Passaic; I wasn’t worried as much as I could have been with Irene. Continue reading

Ready or Not…

Life is basically about improvement, it’s about surviving and trying to reach that goal—the one that you spend all your existence figuring out. For me, I’ve had some idea, but I’ve never been able to pinpoint it. Now, I’ve settled with just aiming without knowing where to shoot, and just fucking shooting.

I’m going to start running in the dark. Because life is short, and I can’t waste anymore years second guessing myself. That being said, I am going to revive this blog and bring it up to speed. There isn’t much to change, just add more things and take away a couple of things.

I will add some very old blog entries that I had intended to add a while back and post up my purdy drawings all over the place. ^w^

As for my activities, I’ve been all over the place, drawing here and there, writing some, and listening to lots and lots of Vocaloid songs. I am officially a passionate lover of Vocaloid. It’s helped me spark back my motivation and has become one of my new muses for my arts and writing.